Monday, January 26, 2004
grrrr...why can't i come up with something more interesting to say here?....dammit why aren't my comments working?....aaaaah! i'm always complaining, why can't i just enjoy life and be happy with what i have?...because that's the point of my pathetic life. to drown myself in my sorrows. sometimes i feel as if i hold the woes of the world on my back.
damnnation....hehehe i love that word tiphony :D
i'm done for now, i'm probably boring you all....or whoever reads this...
damnnation....hehehe i love that word tiphony :D
i'm done for now, i'm probably boring you all....or whoever reads this...
Friday, January 23, 2004
gaaawwwdd...i'm so pathetic. just look at my last entry...
Monday, January 19, 2004
i feel tormented with life. whatever that means. i wish i could figure something out, someone out. i feel trapped in a non-existant reality. nothing is really what it seems. time warp. yawn. this doesn't make any sense. i'm rambling.i wish i had a more creative way to display my blogger. blah!
yada yada yada.
i'm bored with being me. having this life. living in this world. i wish everyone could be themselves. i don't feel like myself unless i'm by myself. thinking on my own and not acting on other people's opinions and actions. i feel alone. but i suppose so does everyone else, right? my mind has curupted itself over the past 16 and a 1/2 years. wasting away over shit that i don't need to know and learning 'knowledge' that supposedly i will need to live in the 'real' world. what is the real world? what am i really preparing myself for? i don't want to grow up. i don't know what i want to do in the world. i want to change it. i will some day. and if i don't i'll do it next time around.
next time.
that's always what i'm doing. procrastination. i hate it. it shall die. but i'll just kill it tomorrow...or the next day.
aaaaah!!!
why do i always feel so nervous? fuck it. i'm done with it. i'm physically and mentally exhausted from my brain. i hate how it works. how it thinks. how it makes me feel. blah blah blah! i wish i knew what i was doing or meant to be doing. i want to feel better and be in a comfortable place in life. grrrr. i'm bored.
i need to go tell people abot my blog...or something
yada yada yada.
i'm bored with being me. having this life. living in this world. i wish everyone could be themselves. i don't feel like myself unless i'm by myself. thinking on my own and not acting on other people's opinions and actions. i feel alone. but i suppose so does everyone else, right? my mind has curupted itself over the past 16 and a 1/2 years. wasting away over shit that i don't need to know and learning 'knowledge' that supposedly i will need to live in the 'real' world. what is the real world? what am i really preparing myself for? i don't want to grow up. i don't know what i want to do in the world. i want to change it. i will some day. and if i don't i'll do it next time around.
next time.
that's always what i'm doing. procrastination. i hate it. it shall die. but i'll just kill it tomorrow...or the next day.
aaaaah!!!
why do i always feel so nervous? fuck it. i'm done with it. i'm physically and mentally exhausted from my brain. i hate how it works. how it thinks. how it makes me feel. blah blah blah! i wish i knew what i was doing or meant to be doing. i want to feel better and be in a comfortable place in life. grrrr. i'm bored.
i need to go tell people abot my blog...or something
